Vicious Cycle

I was afraid to meet you
Afraid that no matter what persona I put on you would see right through me and look my insecurities dead in the eye

I was afraid to talk to you
afraid that my words could never descirb who I truly was or how I felt about you. How hurt and pain has manifested in my heard and taken over that hollw shell where love was supposed ot be

I was afraid to love you

Afraid that my love could never be good enough for you. My love was all that I had to give, but what if it was wasn’t enough to fulfill your needs.

I was afraid of our relationship

Afraid that the ghosts of boyfriends past would haunt us and tear our foundation apart. That no matter how green our grass was that you would look for something better in other yards. Afraid that I would never be good enough for you and could never be the woman that you needed me to be

I was afraid to lose you

Afraid that it was all my fault. That I had driven you away. That I would never find anyone else like you. That no man would ever love me the way you had. That I had somehow sentenced myself to a life of solitude…

I’m afraid of being alone.

I’m afraid that I’ll never get over you

I’m afraid to date again

I’m afraid of finding a new you

I’m afraid….