You kissed me

*this is a little more for the grown ups...*

You kissed me

You kissed me and I felt if i was yours forever. i melted into your arms as you began to undress me. you stood over me and began to take your clothes off as well. i looked at your body and a smile came over my face as a i thought about what was coming up next. you kissed me again. and then you kissed my neck. your kisses trailed over my breast, down my stomach, past my navel, to the prize you've been waiting for. as i felt your mouth on my second set of lips, i cried out in passion and lust and thought about how much I'm in love with you. how every time we do this it feels like the first. how my love grows stronger for you with every kiss. you stood up and looked at me with a sly grin on your face. you gave me a look as if to ask "are you ready?" I simply nod my head and brace myself for the next chapter of our evening. you slide inside me effortlessly and i scream out your name. you chuckle as you spread my legs further apart. with every thrust it feels as if we are getting closer. like nothing in the world matters but us and what we have built together. your pace is slow but steady and then you speed up. the whole time, you are keeping eye contact with me to make sure I'm enjoying this as much as you. i try to switch positions, but you pen me back down. this is your show and you're in charge. I've lost count of how many orgasms I've had at this point. just when i think i can't take anymore, you lean into me and whisper those two magic words, "Take It". almost instantly it seems as if my legs spread a little wider and you slide in 2 inches deeper. i feel like I'm in another world. we been doing this for what seems like hours. the candles have burned all they can burn. the incense has gone out and the CD has stopped. i look you dead in your eyes and say in my most sultry voice "Cum for me". You kiss me and mouth the words, "I love you" You continue your pace and then in 5 long strokes your finish. I wipe the sweat from your brow and kiss your forehead. neither of us has the strength to get up. we lay there in each others arms for what i wish were an eternity. about an hour later an alarm goes off on your cell phone, reminding you that you must leave. you take a quick shower and begin to get dressed. i sit on the side of my bed fighting back the tears that I've shed so many times before. you hug me goodbye and tell me to take care. i watch from my window as you hop into your car. i smile to myself knowing that you will be late to pick up your girlfriend from work. "If only she knew," I think. If only she knew. One day you'll leave her and be all mine. You wont have to rush off in the middle of the night or early in the morning. But I've been waiting for that day for 6 years. Maybe I'm a victim of wishful thinking. But I still long for that day. Until then, i can only sit and daydream about us. I lay back in bed and start reminiscing about our night and how you kissed me. you kissed me......

Jaded

you said you wanted real, but you love that unrealistic
i thought you only wanted one, but you just wanted a main chick
you wanted to have your cake and eat it too but this ain't your birthday
and it's not burger king so you sure as hell can't have it your way
you said you liked how i carried myself and my independence
you liked how i didn't chickenhead my paycheck at the mall and spend it
you appreciated me throwing down in the kitchen on sunday
you loved that i got up and went to work first thing in the morning on Monday
you knew i wasn't easy but not really playing hard to get
and you told me that you liked how i wasn't that average chick

but when i showed you real, you couldn't take it.
you weren't man enough and so you faked it.
you didn't really want a woman, you wanted one of these girls
i was one of the many stars in your universe, and silly me, i was trying to make you my world You wanted that same ole same ole, video girl chick
That same ole same ole, destiny's child chick
you know the one that wants you to pay all her Bills, bills, bills
that girl that keeps dogging you out but you want her still, still, still
But I'm a grown woman and was raised right so I never have my hand out
And maybe one day you Will, Will, Will
See, that here is where you should've have been instead of where you are choosing to be
.I guess as the old saying goes you went from bad to worse
She must have been that 5 star chick, and I'm just a pair of Converse...

Traffic Pt 2: The Road Less Traveled

So I've been driving this same car for 27 years. Low miles, no dents, title reads "One Owner."I've driven down some highways and bi-ways, and freeways and interstates. Back roads where I have to watch out for random deer jumping out at me. Gravel roads where the rocks jump up and hit your car and make your tires dirty. I've driven down roads that were easy to navigate. And I've taken some wrong turns that made the navigation system say, "Girl, WTF are you doing? Make a U-turn!" But, no matter what, I've always been able to make it home safely.

Recently, I found a new route to take daily. I was nervous at first but a few folks told me that this new route was a good idea. That it was an easier path to follow. Some others warned me that just because it seemed like a good idea, maybe it wasn't. Maybe I should stick to the way I've always been driving, rather than taking the road less traveled. But I wanted to experience a new journey so I hopped in my car and was ready for the ride.

At first, my new roadway was everything I needed. No stoplights, smooth pavement, and beautiful scenery. Most of the time, it was smooth sailing down my new street. But there was a problem. It seemed like every other day there would be a stalled vehicle on the road that blocked me from the destination. The same car kept breaking down in the middle of the street. I couldn't get around it so I would have to either wait for the emergency vehicles to come get it, or take another way home. I decided to just take a different way home and opted to just try again another day.

The next day, I drove down my street with no problems. The day after that, there was that car again. The issue went on for weeks. I wrote to my local alderman and asked that the car be banned from the street but I was told there was nothing they could do because the other car had been driving down that street for 2 years before I had so they had every right to be there, no matter what inconvenience it may cause me. I was hurt. My beautiful avenue had now turned into a nightmare on Elm St.The other day I tried to drive down my street and there was way too much traffic, too many other cars trying to take the same route that I had grown to love. These other cars caused too much commotion and confusion and pollution for my beloved little street. But I guess I'm on the only that cares about keeping out neighborhoods beautiful. So I put my car in reverse and waved goodbye to my boulevard of broken dreams. The journey was fun while it lasted.

So now, I'm back to basics. I have begun to drive my old faithful path to work everyday. No frills, no thrills; just the road and me. No stalled cars, no heavy traffic, no potholes. Sometimes I think about that new road I used to drive down. But I don't regret wasting my time going that direction, and I'm grateful for the experience of that journey.I guess the most important thing was that I never got lost taking that new path and could always find my way home.

Maybe the next time I want to go on a funky expedition, I'll just walk.