Disappointment

I told him that I had been hurt before and that I was afraid to love again
And he said that he would never hurt me, that he was different from those other guys.
I said I want to believe you. I want to trust you. But I don’t know if I can
He said that his feelings were real, and that it was okay to put my heart in his hands.
And I believed him
But he lied. He cheated. He left. And he proved he was like the rest of them

She said that I would never hurt you. That I am here for you. That I will always be there
And I told her that she had sad that before. She wasn’t there before so why should I believe you now
She said that she knows she messed up in the past but she was different now. She was a changed woman. She would make it right. And I believed her.
But she lied. She stayed the same. And she proved that if I can’t trust her, then I can’t trust anyone

You said that you would always be there. That we would be friends until the end
And I said that I needed a friend. I needed someone to be there for me. I couldn’t handle someone leaving me again. I couldn’t take another promise being broken.
And you said that would never do that. You would be the shoulder I could lean on.
And I believed you.
But you lied. We grew apart. You began to live a life that no longer included me. You, like the others, left.

And now I sit here disappointed.